I've been gone from my own "art focus" for four months...still doing some art...but mainly doing things that revolve around my wonderful husband, his illness and taking care of our family...and taking care of me too!!! All of this has been a FULL TIME JOB!!!! I've been very distracted....with emotions flying all over the place. We will continue our blog at
http://www.richardandsherri.com/ but I think it's important to get back to my own place, my own thoughts and my own art.
We are having to redefine normal since Richard's cancer diagnosis. My life will never be the same. Right now it is all experimental. Some things feel good when I do them, some things feel bad....but I'm doing them and I think that that is whats important. I am not the same person I was four months ago....in some ways I'm more confident, stronger, more sure than I have ever been. In other ways I'm pretty pathetic and whimpy. But in all ways I am very focused on living life to the fullest...I call it making my moments plump. I'm determined to live with love surrounding me. I'm determined to live with passion. I'm determine to continue creating because I know that that is how I stay spiritually connected and whole.
To you, my friends, thank you so much for your support and prayers for our family. You have stuck by us in ways I sometimes still can't believe. I have learned what friendship is. You have been wonderful teachers. I truly am blessed and touched by so many acts of kindness and love. I have watched you all love Richard...and I have watched that love bathe him in a healing light that is very powerful. How can I ever thank everyone?
I wanted to share some of my journal pages that I have done over the past few weeks. The drawings are things I have done while waiting in doctor's offices, during radiation treatments, and here at home when I needed to keep my hands busy. I don't consider myself a draw-er, but I'm trying to challenge myself to do a drawing a day...no matter if it is the ugliest thing in the world. I've made a rule that I can't rip them out of my sketch book. The ones that I am displeased with are as important as the ones I love. Here are a few......
I apologize for the crummy scans but I haven't figured out my new scanning program.....they're crooked and not cropped but I'll keep working on it. At lease you can see what I've been working on. Sometimes I feel like I'm so clumsy with my art these days and other times it feels so good to be doing it. I'm sure that's normal (I guess) considering what I've been through. I'm giving myself time to just be with whatever comes.
I've also started teaching again. I am so glad to be back. It's funny but I am even a different teacher as a result of this experience with Richard. I feel, more passionately, the power of creativity and how it feeds the soul. I'm also so much more aware of how my art is a "place" for just me....even though I show it to others.....when I am creating I am there taking care of myself. I also immediately had deep feelings for my students.....wanting to give them the best experience possible. It feels wonderful.
O.K....enough for my first entry. I'll see you back here soon. Until then....love with all your might and let your beautiful lights shine.
Blessings,
Sherri
