The Ritual Has Begun!!!

Oh my gosh!!! It is in the morning and I have found some precious time to scan some recent work, I have finally been successful at doing that and saving it on my computer, and I am sitting here actually ready to write. I am quick to remember the rythym of my morning ritual and it seems to be such a familiar tune. I feel so comfy and sosososo relieved.

In between all the work on our new house I've spent alot of time thinking about where I want to go with my art. This seems to be a constant stream of thought for me. I feel like I often get stuck at this place and it has become exhausting! It's almost like....what can of artist do I want to be when I grow up!!!! Interesting....do you think that maybe instead of thinking about where I want to go I may need to be thinking about where I already am??????? What a concept! It is so easy to get caught up in looking backwards or at looking ahead....I forget that right now I have work to do. My spirit is crying out for creative attention and time and I often find myself not listening. How sad is that?

As I remove myself from the "home" projects for a few minutes....my breath gets caught and I feel so sad that I have forgotten to tend the most important part of me.....my true creative spirit. I have forgotten to rejoice in who I really am.....getting lost in all the details of life.....all the decisions about remodeling, health issues, tending to family needs, trying to get things organized....feeling so overwhelmed. My soul has been shoved around....screaming in the only way it knows how to....leaving me feeling overwhelmed, frustrated and even angry (that is my soul's voice when it is unhappy)...but until I finally stop for a while I really have been unable to see the situation clearly. Is this my own private struggle or do others have similar moments of artistic confusion?

I've tried to download my recent work....but Blogger seems to be having difficulty this morning and I can't seem to get things downloaded..... How disappointing!!! But....I guess it leaves something for all of us to look forward to!!! I will try to download later....I can't wait for you to see what I've been working on.

Have a wonderful day!